Week One - Weekend Review

This week-end went both as planned, and also horribly off-plan. I had two parties to attend, and (TMI alert:) I started my period. Seasonal Affective Disorder has set in, and I am struggling under the weight of the self-imposed expectations of the season. I need more down time with friends. That said, I am fairly confident I need to be sure to attend all possible training sessions with Charleen rather than try to do them on my own because my internal motivation structure is in deeep hibernation.

I also feel the pull of a long hike in the mountains.

There was a domino effect of indulgences causing inflammation causing sugar/alcohol cravings causing massive pain and complete lack of motivation. I started a couple blog posts, both of which disappeared.

So here we are, on Monday morning, looking at all I have to juggle, deciding which things draw me out  of my shell and planning rest and restorative time into my week.

Last week was too much for me. I am taking steps to map out my own training program that can both support Charleen, and still serve me individually. Not sure how this will look, but I know that I want to do a lot more with the clubbells and less on the volume required for Tacfit. This will require creative training time, since I do not own the required clubs and our gym only has one set of 10s. I am fine using 5s for the first month, just to get the rhythm and movements, but if I don't get clubs for christmas, I'm buying them for myself for my birthday.

Training is more than just doing the moves and sweating it out. It requires an equal balance of rest and proper nutrition. These are my challenges. I want to live and train with grace and ease. Force, coercion, belittling do not work for me. They are temporary, and only feed my depression, which is very close to the surface this time of year, and will knock everything off balance if I have to deal with that aspect of myself as well.

This week, I am focussed on getting good nutrition in at each meal, while not stressing about 'good food' and 'bad food'. I am not going to eat a bunch of energy bars all day, but I'm also not going to freak out if I have to use store-bought salad dressing.

I am practicing taking care of myself first. Everyone else in my life is a grown-up and can take care of themselves for a while.